Merry Christmas

My sister is 15 today - woohoo - she's a cutie. I'm not sure what to write now but I'll come of with something later.
You can see pictures of my and my friends here: http://unk.facebook.com/photos.php?id=76803167&l=f2a81

I'm trying to get my thoughts together. Trying to figure out what I'm supposed to do. Is is wrong that I want more in this life and don't know, in some ways, how to get it? I have Christ as my Saviour and know that I need to pursue and become more like him, but its hard to know what to do. I'm used to having steps - A to B and you get to C. But this isn't a step-by-step program. Just one day at a time - knowing where I am now is where I'm supposed to be, but knowing I could do more. My job and my family - places I am secure in - but I want to serve. Opportunities are presenting themselves - playing guitar and working on a Web site in the future - it's service - but I don't feel like it's enough. I see the poverty and pain - but I don't know how to help. I give money - but I don't want that to be all I do - just fund and never get involved. I need to remember something I learned - its not the successes I have that matter - in regards to my relationship with Christ - but being willing and making myself available. I learned that in Freiburg, Germany. I am still doing God's will even if no one wants to talk to me about God - I only need to be willing.